A lot of teens ask themselves, "What am I?" For multiracial teens, the answer gets especially complicated. It's
something that Elaine Vilorio has thought about a lot. She's a high
school senior, originally from the Dominican Republic. Over the course
of her life, people assumed that she was black, and that bothered her.
But two years ago, after she stopped chemically straightening her hair,
the change in her appearance made her rethink her roots. She wrote about
this in a Huffington Post and talked about it Thursday on Tell Me More with guest host Celeste Headlee. You can read the . Highlights from the exchange are below.
Interview Highlights
On the difference between US and Dominican perceptions of identity:
When
I came here ... I was really, really small. I never had gotten the
question of what I was. I never really understood what that was. So when
I encountered other kids who had grown up here more than I had, and
they asked me ... what was I. And I was a little confused. I was like,
"Well, I'm from the Dominican Republic," you know. They always said,
Oh, well, you know, I thought you were black. And I had never gotten that.
[For] Dominican kids, it's always ...
You're Dominican. So national identity was placed above racial identity, whereas here I found that racial identity was pinpointed first.
On 'black-on-black' racism: I've
seen ... Afro-Latinos, to use that phrase — Latinos who have obvious
Afro-descendency — separate themselves from blacks by putting them off
... using stereotypes, like,
Oh my goodness, they're so uneducated and blah blah blah. And I've always thought, "Well, you look like 'them.' And they're referring to ... American blacks. And I'm just thinking,
So you look like them, you're putting these people in, you know, this category, but what about you? And that's always been something that's bothered me.
On being 'racially black and culturally Hispanic':
My parents raised me and the
values that they grew up with. And then also I had, ... growing up in
America and in the American school system so I had ... that bi-cultural
influence. But racially I'm black, you know. I can say that I'm black
and being black and being Hispanic, Hispanic being a culture and black
... being associated with a culture, yes, but also with a race. You can
be racially black and you can be culturally Hispanic and that was
something that I wanted to combine, that I want to explore further and
talk about more.
CELESTE HEADLEE, HOST:
This is TELL ME MORE from NPR News. The
question of, what am I, is one that a lot of teens ask themselves and
the answer can be quite complicated for multiracial kids. It's
something that Elaine Vilorio has thought a lot about. She's a high
school senior, originally from the Dominican Republic. Over the course
of her life, people assumed she was black and that bothered her. But two
years ago, after she stopped chemically straightening her hair, the
change in her appearance made her rethink her roots. She wrote about
that in a Huffington Post piece titled "Coming Out as Black," and Elaine
Vilorio is now here to tell us more.
Welcome to the program, first of
all.
ELAINE VILORIO: Thank you, I'm happy to be here.
HEADLEE: First of all, let me ask you, why did you phrase it that way, coming out as black?
VILORIO:
Well, people have always asked me, you know, like you said, you know,
if I was black consistently, and I've always denied that. So I thought
that was a very fitting way, a very dramatic way to say that I finally
have admitted, you know, this Afro identity, so to speak, when it's
always been there. Coming out, I finally can say it out loud, and I can
finally explain to people, yes, I have African roots in me and that's
okay.
HEADLEE: Well, when you talk about racial identity, it's something you've written about quite a bit as well.
VILORIO: Yes.
HEADLEE: What is racial identity for you? Is it about the way you see yourself or how others see you?
VILORIO:
I mean, it's a combination of both. I think people perceive me and they
separate Afro-descendancy from, you know, the Hispanic identity.
Hispanic identity doesn't really take into account that African racial
root. You know, I see myself as a predominantly black Hispanic. And then
other people, you know, they just see a mixed person, just mixed.
Blackness isn't really, you know, acknowledged.
HEADLEE: You know, the Dominican Republic has kind of an uneasy relationship with race and...
VILORIO: Yes.
HEADLEE:
...and the darkness of one's skin. What did you learn about this issue,
black versus Latina, during your time in the Dominican Republic?
VILORIO:
When I came here, you know, I was really, really small. I never had
gotten the question of what I was. I never really understood what that
was. So when I encountered, you know, other kids who had grown up here
more than I had and they asked me, you know, what was I?
And I
was a little confused. I was like well, I'm from Dominican Republic and
you know, they always said, oh well, you know, I thought you were black.
And I had never gotten that. I'd never, for you know, for Dominican
kids it's always, you know, you're Dominican. So national identity was
placed above racial identity, whereas here I found that racial identity
was pinpointed first.
HEADLEE: Although Dominicans, they
identify - if you want to talk about black, they usually identify black
as equivalent to Haitian.
VILORIO: Yes.
HEADLEE: And
that's not seen as a positive thing. Being black is not considered to be
positive in the Dominican Republic. How did that attitude affect the
way you answered that question?
VILORIO: I had never
consciously thought about it until a couple years ago when I stopped
chemically straightening my hair. But I had always, you know, grown up
with those subtle phrases like, stop being such a Haitian and you know,
that's an equivalent to, let's say, stop being so stupid. The other day,
I came home really, really tan and my mother was like, oh my goodness,
you look like a Haitian, this is horrible. So you know, my mother was...
HEADLEE: What did you say to her?
VILORIO:
Oh, I was like, oh my goodness, mother, you know, it's not a big deal,
I'm just a little tan. But I was - it's something that I was used to.
And I was thinking about this. I was like, man, you know, this just
keeps coming up, this whole, you know, subtle racism type of thing. I've
seen, you know, Afro-Latinos to use that phrase, Latinos who have
obvious, you know, Afro descendancy separate themselves from blacks by
putting them off, you know, using stereotypes like, oh my goodness,
they're so uneducated and blah blah blah.
And I've always
thought, well, you look like them. And they're referring to, you know,
American blacks. I'm just thinking, so you look like them. You're
putting these people in, you know, this category but what about you? And
that's always been something that's bothered me.
HEADLEE:
Well, when you say you acknowledged it, last year you actually wrote an
article, "Another Latina Nerd Tells Her Story." In that, you talked
about the confusion you've had over your racial identity and you
identified very proudly, very firmly as Latina and Hispanic.
VILORIO: Yes.
HEADLEE:
This year, you wrote another very firm, very confident, again, article,
again in the Huff Post, in which you say, I am black.
VILORIO: Yes.
HEADLEE: So what changed?
VILORIO:
I mean, I still identify strongly as a Hispanic because, you know, that
is my culture. I - you know, my parents raised me on the values that
they grew up with. And then also I had, you know, growing up in America
and in the American school system. So I had, you know, that bicultural
influence. But racially I'm black. You know, I can say that I'm black.
And being black and being Hispanic, Hispanic being a culture and black,
you know, being associated with a culture, yes, but also with a race,
you can be racially black and you can be, you know, culturally Hispanic.
And that was something that I wanted to combine and that I want to
explore further and talk about more.
HEADLEE: I'm glad to hear
you say explore this more, Elaine, 'cause, I mean, as a 40-something
mixed race person, I can tell you that your journey into the world of
racial identity is just beginning. Where do you go from here? What's
your next step in kind of determining this? Or is there going to be a
point at which you say, look, call me what you will, I know who I am?
VILORIO:
I would like to educate people and breaking down, you know, a little
bit of the stereotyping and the racism that goes on with people that are
Hispanic and are racially black but then try to separate themselves
from, you know, other black people here in the United States.
HEADLEE: Are you about to graduate, Elaine?
VILORIO: I am, yes. This June.
HEADLEE: Well, congratulations.
VILORIO: Thank you.
HEADLEE: Moving on to college?
VILORIO: Yes, that's right.
HEADLEE: Well, good luck in the future.
VILORIO: Thank you.
HEADLEE:
Elaine Vilorio, a high school senior, for just a few more days, from
New Jersey. She was kind enough to join us from our New York bureau.
Thanks so much.
VILORIO: Thank you for having me.
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